This is a very personal post but it's just too good not to share. Plus - I use this blog as an on-line journal to help me remember events and my thoughts and feelings.
Scott and I have been trying off and on for about a year to have a baby. I really don't think about it too much because I've just tried to put it in God's hands and I really trust that He will bring us a child. But the last couple of months have been pretty difficult for us because we are SO ready to get pregnant and every month that the answer is "no" is one step closer to 34 for me. I don't think I've put off having a baby because I didn't get married until I was 30 and I believe with all my heart that that was God's will. And we wanted a year or so to build a strong foundation in our marriage before we worked on growing the family.
Most days I'm just really full of hope because I know God loves me and wants to bless me. But today was one of those days that I had a hard time. A girl in my office announced she was pregnant. And while I am very happy for her - it was just a reminder of what I long for so badly. So I left work and went to Wal-Mart and I was kind of wandering around feeling sorry for myself as I watched all the parents and kids walking by. And I did what I try to do every time I get down - I started to count my blessings. God has been unbelievably good to Scott and I. Sometimes I just can't understand why He chooses to bless us so much. Even today - God answered some specific prayers we had been praying in ways that can only be described as miraculous.
So I don't know why this surprised me so much because I serve a God who cares about every detail of my life and who knows the number of hairs on my head and knows my prayers before I pray them ..........but I came home and pulled out the mail and the first thing I saw was a cute little envelope. I opened it up and couldn't believe what I was reading. A sweet girl who goes to my church but who I don't know AT ALL (but who I admire and think a lot of) - sent me a card. She said that I had been on her mind for several months and for some reason God had prompted her to pray for us and that he had told her that we wanted a baby. She is someone who has struggled with the same thing and now has one precious baby and another that is coming any day! She said she might be totally wrong - but she was going to pray for us anyway.
I stood in the driveway and just started sobbing. I went inside and Scott thought someone had died I was crying so hard. When I could finally choke out the words I showed him the card. Not only does God have PERFECT timing but that He would gently show me that He cares enough to put us on the hearts of others just blows me away. And this is not the first person who has told me that they felt like God wanted them to pray for us. This is just the first person who I don't know that has done this. I really don't think there is a praise song out there that can put into words how amazing I think my God is.
Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this:
Psalm 37:3-5
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That is precious. This is something that will encourage you and remind you of God's goodness the rest of your life. We are praying for you!
I found your blog through Tiffani (whose blog I somehow stumbled on last week)and first saw the Razorback colors and the Darren McFadden SI pic...we just framed that in our "razorback room". I read your whole blog and loved it!(there are not that many people out there that I will have the attention span to read their WHOLE blog) We are also die-hard razorback fans! Only 3 days now until the game!!! We'll be there!
I am currently reading a book by Priscilla Shirer call "Discerning the Voice of God...How to Recognize When God Speaks". This speaks to me and I pray to you:
"I know the Lord is speaking to me when He repeats the same message through many different venues in a short period of time" and " I know that the Lord is speaking to me when He impresses something on my spirit INTERNALLY and confirms it through a person or circumstance EXTERNALLY". That is how God is speaking to you, Kelly, and He is using this sweet girl from your church to tell you He hears your prayers! One of my favorites from the Lord is: "Trust in the Lord with all your heart;do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will direct your paths" Proverbs 3:5-6
God is going to do something awesome...we can trust Him! Love you dearly, Mom
"Cast your cares upon the Lord and He will sustain you.” Psalm 55:22 Trust in that, believe in that, hope in that! If he cares for the sparrows, how much more does he care for you? : )
I LOVE this story! I needed to hear it myself. It is so encouraging and neat to see God at work. I pray for you everyday!
That's awesome. This story is a reminder that He knows what He's doing, but it's also a reminder to all of us to write those notes or make those phone calls when we get a little nudge, because it obviously means the world to the recipient...Thanks for sharing.
The other thing I love about this story is that the card came in the mail and you've said before how much you LOVE mail - I remember you saying that because I love it, too. I think it just made this story even more special because God knew how excited you would be to get "real" mail.
Kelly,
I'm a friend of Rebekah Harris's. We met at her wedding 5 years ago. I was a bridesmaid. I remember you and Laurie and how sweet you both were. Thanks for this post! I'm getting married in 2 1/2 weeks and am struggling with turning over to Him this part of my life~I want to have children so much, but worry about the what if I can't. I know it's not up to me. Thanks for the verse, it has helped!
I'll put you and Scott on my prayer list. Nice to reconnect thru the blogs!!
Megan
God is so amazing!! He works in so many neat ways and through so many people. I needed to hear this myself. Thank you so much for sharing, and even though I have never met you and Scott, I feel like I know you so well through this blog and from Guy & Julie. I will continue to pray for you two!!
Kelly-I prayed & cried the same prayer to our Heavenly Father for what seemed like so many months. I then asked a friend if it was wrong to keep repeating the same prayer as if God hadn't heard me, but was assured that He wants us to go to Him no matter what. I'll keep you in my prayers, and know that God hears you. Through that precious letter, God is telling you that He hears you and to trust in Him. It's so assuring that God answers our prayers and often speaks through people we would never expect to let us know that He cares.
Kelly, I'm so glad you shared this neat story. I think of you SO often and pray for you...I cannot wait to see what exciting things the Lord has for you in the future. Your faith and patience are such a witness and encouragement to everyone, including me. jlg
Kelly, I'm so glad you posted a comment on my blog so I could read this story. I know we don't know each other, but I just want you to know that I will keep you & Scott in my prayers. God is AMAZING & I know he has nothing less than that planned for your life. Thanks for sharing that sweet story.
I love your story! Thanks for sharing it with all of your loyal readers! It brought tears to my eyes! God loves you so much and in His perfect timing everything will work out! I am so thankful that God knows our paths and that He promises to supply all of of our needs. Thank goodness it is in His hands and not our own! Just think, one day you will have a wonderful story to share with someone to encourage them just like you were encouraged!!! You guys are in our prayers!
Kelly, this posting made me cry! Thank you for being so honest in your writing. I will pray for you!
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